Let's just forget romance and dating and everything related to that for a moment. I don't know about you, but it has never worked for me. And currently I'm more challenged than I ever was on that arena.
I merely tried to say that I love you and that you're more important to me than any flimsy romantic relationship could ever be. I hope I never hurt you again, like I did all those years ago.
First of all, it never worked for you because you were never serious about it. You always had a girl of the night. I was the only one who ever seemed to stick around and that was because you'd adopted me.
And...yes. It did work for me. For a little while. And then he got arrested and it got complicated.
[Erik, of course.]
And you only hurt me because I let you. It's not your fault that you didn't see me the way I wanted you to.
Yes, you were. And I'm not ignoring your part in it. But the point is that I was letting you. Or if not always, at least acting the part when I was trying to get you to stop. I doubt many 'grown women' sprawl across men to get them to see them as adult. ...okay, maybe they do, but not in the day I did it.
Well, yes. I suppose you're right. You did act quite immature for your age at times. And I don't mean to offend you with this.
[ Partying with the kids, demanding at times like a teenager, Charles knows part of it is because he never asked her to join him in things where growing up was happening. But she's right, it's not all his fault either, and it would be presumptions of him to assume so. ]
I suppose we could say we have now a chance to start again as adults. What do you say?
[Okay, so maybe him saying it bluntly like that got under her skin a little, but...]
We enabled the worst in each other. But I suppose we barely know each other now. We've been apart almost as long as we were together. I'm sure we can do better.
He made me happy, Charles. And loved for who I was, for what I was. After seeing me for who I was changed from making you awestruck to just tongue-tied.
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Date: 2017-04-12 05:05 am (UTC)even if it was only for a little while.
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Date: 2017-04-12 01:06 pm (UTC)What I tried to suggest is that we can try to be better for one another in whatever way we want to relate to each other.
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Date: 2017-04-12 01:11 pm (UTC)[Had to be because he couldn't be suggesting what she thought he was suggesting.]
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Date: 2017-04-13 02:41 am (UTC)[ Shaking his head in fond amusement here. ]
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Date: 2017-04-13 04:09 am (UTC)[No, she can't even say it.]
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Date: 2017-04-13 11:01 am (UTC)[ Confused now. ]
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Date: 2017-04-13 11:15 am (UTC)[Are you really going to make her say it, Charles?]
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Date: 2017-04-13 11:50 am (UTC)[ She's never this hesitant about anything. What's up? ]
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Date: 2017-04-13 11:57 am (UTC)It sounds like you're suggesting we help each other out. In a very non-platonic way.
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Date: 2017-04-13 12:10 pm (UTC)[ So violent. He's just a harmless telepath... ]
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Date: 2017-04-13 12:33 pm (UTC)Upsetting. Sure.
[For some definition of the word.]
Why don't you tell me what you actually meant?
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Date: 2017-04-13 12:50 pm (UTC)I merely tried to say that I love you and that you're more important to me than any flimsy romantic relationship could ever be. I hope I never hurt you again, like I did all those years ago.
That is what I wanted to say.
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Date: 2017-04-13 01:01 pm (UTC)And...yes. It did work for me. For a little while. And then he got arrested and it got complicated.
[Erik, of course.]
And you only hurt me because I let you. It's not your fault that you didn't see me the way I wanted you to.
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Date: 2017-04-13 01:40 pm (UTC)maybe they do, but not in the day I did it.
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Date: 2017-04-13 01:59 pm (UTC)[ Partying with the kids, demanding at times like a teenager, Charles knows part of it is because he never asked her to join him in things where growing up was happening. But she's right, it's not all his fault either, and it would be presumptions of him to assume so. ]
I suppose we could say we have now a chance to start again as adults. What do you say?
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Date: 2017-04-14 09:28 am (UTC)We enabled the worst in each other.
But I suppose we barely know each other now. We've been apart almost as long as we were together. I'm sure we can do better.
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Date: 2017-04-16 07:41 pm (UTC)I hope that is a trend that will change. How about we start from getting to know each other again?
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Date: 2017-04-21 10:43 pm (UTC)My relationship with Erik?
[And maybe she'll throw him the worst of it to see how he'll react. The one she knows will bother him.]
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Date: 2017-04-22 12:08 am (UTC)[ If you could hear him sigh... ]
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Date: 2017-04-22 06:00 pm (UTC)You had your coeds. And I? I was just your little sister. The older we got, the more people thought I was your ward, not someone to date.
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